Littlehouseonthedesert

I miss Guumi.

littlehouseonthedesert — Thu, 20 Dec 2007 06:06:17 +0000

I was onto something. I had someone IN my house one a week and she made me better and secondarily my house better. i feel slovenly. Whe Guumi was here, I got shit done. Now dont be getting me wrong. I actuallly did do lots of cleanupity shit this past week, but my house looks like shit.

I like talking to her. I liked talking to her while my shit got shiney.

I blame my over consumption of xmas cookies on no Guumi.

my housekeepers house

littlehouseonthedesert — Sat, 15 Dec 2007 21:50:26 +0000

I just dropped off the kids off at my housekeepers house. I should have brought the kids clothes and the bank account numbers for their college fund. Cuz, they aint never gunna want to come back here.

Little “A” has a playhouse, FURNISHED! She has a playroom with wall to wall princess dresses.

The house is bright and clean and new and shiney and and and…I am depressed.

Updater:financial ruin imminent.

littlehouseonthedesert — Fri, 14 Dec 2007 06:26:44 +0000

I cleaned out the trailer, the garage and closets. I am having a yard sale. We don’t have money for food, so I am forced to waste time trying to sell crap. I wouldn’t even slow down if I saw my crap in someone else’s driveway.

The car will cost 500 bucks to be repaired. C’s boss is lending us the money.

Dental visit will bancrupt us. Fuck. GG needs to go to school so i have to follow through.

CC payments are scheduled for tomorrow. Water shut off is Monday. Cell phones next week. i think we have cable until the end of the month, which means we have internet and phone, unless vonage bounces.

i dont think we will have a tree. No trampoline. The grinch stole xmas and we arent singing songs in the towne square with cindy lu who. I am pouting, crying and generally miserable. No happy talk. No haha funny.

No wonder no one wants to be my fwend.

my plan for avoiding financial ruin.

littlehouseonthedesert — Wed, 12 Dec 2007 17:12:36 +0000

1. sell 3 weekends a month at four corners.

a.sell sewing machines,heat transfer machine,baby swings,tables, furniture,crappy clothes,

2. sell at Rose bowl,

a. sell all the vintage crap

3. Fix serger

a.make blankets

4. clear out the garage

5. sell taurus

6. buy baja bug

7. buy shipping container for storage and shiopping

8.clean out trailer

9. clean camper

I ahve to go play “GO FISH” will update more.

so disappointed and hateful

littlehouseonthedesert — Mon, 10 Dec 2007 05:16:04 +0000

fucking bitch 15 year old let the dog get out. now she is gone. it is fuckiing freezing outside.

Back to hating people.

my new bestest friend.

littlehouseonthedesert — Sat, 08 Dec 2007 18:05:31 +0000

I found this gorgeous teeny tiny thang running in the middle of the street with no collar on her. I pulled over and opened the door and called to her. She was skittish, but then she ran right to me. i couldnt believe it! She weighs about a pound and a half. She fits right in the crook of my neck.

I found her a new home within 20 minutes. I am not surprised. She is instant love.

the last time I found a puppy, I put signs up all over town and never got a response. I know it is presumptuous but I am pretty sure she was dumped or lost on purpose. I dont doubt that some little kid is missing her, but I think her owner let her run away. It is way too common around here.

here she is.

Mother’s angst and how can they reject ME?

littlehouseonthedesert — Thu, 06 Dec 2007 04:53:32 +0000

I called Homeschool girls’ mom today. I called her after Halloween to say thanks for having us over and we had so much fun..yaddayadda. I said all that on the machine. She never called me back. I figured she didnt like me as I said before. Pepper thinks Homeschoolgirl is her best friend so I went out of my way and called her. Plus, I cant stand not to be liked, even if I dont like you.

I fished to see if anything was wrong. I used big bait, as in I out and out asked her if there was a problem since she didnt return my call. She said she didnt know she had to call me back, since I didnt ask a question. She said she isnt very good at reaching out to people , is busy etc.

All that and she didnt mention the tea party. When I get to school to pick up Pepper , I notice she looks really sad. but cant focus on her yet. Candy, the nanny of Wallabygirl says they wont be at karate b/c they are going to do somethng with Homeschoolgirl…the tea party. I am so pissed . I was wondering how she was going to go to both, and I guess she isnt. Fuck. I am rejected by dorks who I wouldnt know in a million years of I didnt have these little kids. Little kids who pick these random weird people to be friends with. I am beginning to understand arranged marriages now.

I am bothered by Wallabymom b/c she has no sense of appropriateness ( duh, I know) HSG’s mom b/c she doesnt care about leaving Pepper ( the coolest kid ever) out (ugh) and b/c I have to care about these people.

As soon as Candy said WBG wasnt going to karate, the girls both said “oh no! I dont wanna go either” ! Fuck that.

So then, I get hom and see Pepper’s face again. She is crestfallen. I ask her if she is tird from her cold. She says no, then tears start welling up in her eyes. She says that Wallabygirl gave the xmas candy we gave her to two other girls…( we gave WBG three peices of xmas candy in the morning to put in her backpack) Pepper is wiping tears away and is hurt really bad for the first time in her life by a friend. I want to kill whoever is making my baby cry. Instead I hug her ,totally understanding how she feels to be hurt by such a little insignificant action.

Pepper further tells me that WBG always gives things away that P gives her. She says that she asked WBG NOT to give the candy away. Then, on the way out of school, she gives it away.

gggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

MORE: So, it is Thursday. i asked P if she was hurt that she wasnt invited to the tea party. She said “I guess Homeschoolgirl isn’t my friend anymore”. I really dont know what to say at all, but I have to say something, so I say “i guess that’s what happens when you are homeschooled, you dont see your friends anymore”. Then I realised that was bullshit, since Wallabygirl is going to the tea party. So then I had to say that HSG’s mom felt sorry for WBG. I said I thought it was wrong for WBG’s mom to say ok to the tea party the same fucking night as karate…’cept I left out the fucking part. I sked P is there was anyone else she wanted to be friends with, but she said everyone already has friends. Dejected.

I was going to ask WBG’s mom about not going to karate tonight, but today is her day off, so she took WBG to school herself. Damn fuck piss whure.

Why wasn’t P invited to the tea party? She is such a nice little girl. maybe they didnt want GG, too? I dont know, but I am so through with all these bitches.

I dont want to get P together with HSG. Ever. Today, I hate it here.

Ginger

littlehouseonthedesert — Wed, 05 Dec 2007 15:36:23 +0000

Miss Ginger is going to go to school full time. 5 days a week.

Yesterday, I arranged for Ginger Grace to go to her little friend Avery’s house while I went to the dentist. Avery has 15 freakin puppies. A puppy orgy.
When it came time to get dressed to go, Ginger said no. She shook and shook and cried.
I didnt go to the dentist.

wednesday morning:

Mother’s angst.

Wallaby Girl just told pepper that Homechoolgirl is having a tea party tomorrow. A formal dress tea party. She thought she was inviting pepper. I think I am feeling worse about it than pepper. Homeschoolmom hasnt returned my one phone call to her. I am afraid my margarita breath fumes and apparent cruelty to Wallabygirl made her not like me. Now the girls arent invited.

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Somewhere in littlerock 15 puppies are missing some Ginger.

going back to Compton

littlehouseonthedesert — Mon, 03 Dec 2007 23:53:12 +0000

well, in this case, Mexican Mountain. The Mr. is going back to work on Mex Mtn. tomorrow.

whew.

fog lifts

littlehouseonthedesert — Mon, 03 Dec 2007 19:26:20 +0000

and so does my crazy. i went to bed mindful that I have to go to karate monday night. SO, I didnt drink too much wine. I wouldnt want to be out of shape and reeling from insomnia.

I woke up feeling definetely uncrazy. I am wearing my “jeans” and not pajamas.

That hasnt happened for a week and a half to two weeks.

I will now leave the house.

UPDATE: I am not dead. My knees did not buckle and I did not collapse on the floor from back pain. I sorta did the exercises. Kids looked at me with a little worry in their eyes, but mostly they took pity on me.

the male sensai is sort of sexy and looked me in the eyes a lot. He also told me I did the most difficult move in our “cada”(?) perfectly ! HA!

We had to do a shoulder roll on the matt and I pootered during mine. i couldnt hear anything but my fat around my ears and was too embarrassed to look at sexyman, so i dont know if he heard. oh dear.

I bet I will be very sore tomorrow.